I have just finished a week long training to become a certified peer support specialist. I have my certificate and tomorrow I leave for Abilene on the bus. It has been an interesting week and I have learner a lot about recovery. I learned that recovery is an individual thing and I cannot do it for the person. Each person has to do their own recovery. I learned ways to facilitate that recovery change.
I was already well on my way to recover and I feel that this is the next chapter in my life-helping others. I look forward to things getting better and better.
I am not feeling well today which is not anything new. I figured that I have been sick off and on since the first of the year. I don’t know whether this time it is depression sinking in or just the sinus infection that I have one more time. I don’t know whether it is the illness or am I getting burned/stressed out? If I am to commit to the training, I have to be there every day regardless of how I feel because other people are paying for me to be there. My boss is not pleased with me and I don’t know what to tell her.
I am thinking that I need to up my counseling sessions to every week until I get over this hump of illness and depression. I feel like I am hanging on by my fingernails and am close to relapse. My sister tells me it is all the things budding out and the changeable weather that is causing all these sinus infections. She says that it will soon pass. I hope so.
I will be so glad once everything has budded out and the pollen and wind are not so bad. That last dust storm really did me in. I have not had this much problem with allergies until this year. The winds blowing dust has been really bad and that combined with the pollen has left me feeling horrible all the time. I think I just need to give myself a break and to realize that it is not always about me. There are some things over which I have no control and this is one of them. There has got to be better days ahead. I pray that there are.
This is my second attempt at getting started with my blog. I have never done anything like this before. This is something new for me and I hope that it will be a success.
I work for the Mental Health Association here in Abilene, TX and I attend church at Heavenly Rest Episcopal Church. I work on the newsletter at work and I attend Education for Ministry (EfM) classes through the church. I have been writing for many years in journals and I am an artist as well. I have been drawing and using oil pastels or soon will be to work on a portrait of Mother Teresa. I have a bachelor’s degree in Journalism with a minor in history/political science. I also have an associate’s degree in drafting and a certificate in computer graphics. I have bipolar/depression which is now controlled with medication and I am a recovering alcoholic/addict/compulsive overeater. I have been clean and sober for 14 years and I am now struggling with my food. Those are the basic facts about me.
The reasons for starting this blog are to link it to work and church and talk about recovery issues, life issues, and what it is like going through EfM. It would also help me in the process write about the things that I go through on a weekly basis. I will really be learning some things when I go for training in Austin for Certified Peer Support Specialist training. I go for that the latter part of this month. I don’t know how all of this is going to work so bear with me while I try to learn how to set up my blog.